I will no longer update this journal.  My new journal is at http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp?user=billy1981 .  So please visit it when you can.

I got a letter last week from Evelyn!!! She is doing well.   I have my doubts about our relationship.

I have got to go on somekind of diet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finished reading The Rising and I am now reading The State of Fear.

I bought a dvd set of Dark Angel for $14.95 at Walmart.  It was orginally $39.00.

I have been buying a lot of Clint Eastwood Westerns lately.   I have three on DVD.  And I have recored two of them on Encore.

I have been thinking of looking into some online courses.  Maybe in Pshychology.

I have been having dreams about that girl in High School.  I have written about her before on here.  Her first name was Noelle. (I liked the name so much that I used the name in a children story that I wrote).   I know that I am over her, I still would like to see her again and maybe be friends.

I am mad that one of my favorite shows (Boston Legals) won't be back on until fall!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for the long delay in my journal!  Yes my tooth has been really bothering me (hurting).  I am going to try to get to the dentist next week.  I have never been to a dentist before so I am kind of nervous. 

I haven't been up to too much.  I have fallen behind on my genealogy.  I need to catch up soon.  My diet hasn't been that great.   I got a letter from Evelyn a week ago.  She is doing fine. 

Easter dinner was at my grandma's on Sunday.  It was fun.

I am reading the Rising the prequel to Left Behind. I saw a movie called Jersey Girl over the weekend.  It was a cute movie!    I have been watching the practice at 8:00 a.m. on FX during the week.  I bought the Indcredibles a few weeks ago.  It is a funny movie!!!!!!  I have been watching the new show Blind Justice.

I have been working on a plastic model ( I haven't worked on one in years.)  I have also been working on some paper models too.

Sorry I haven't written in my Blog for awhile!!!!  My tooth is feeling a little better.  But I have caught a bad cold!!!!  I haven't heard back from the theology course, I am going to email them one more time if I don't hear back from them then I am through!!!!!  I guess that is what i get for beliving in a free course!

Evelyn is doing fine!!!!!!!!!!!  I got a letter from her on Valentines Day!!!!!!! 

My diet hasn't been going to great!!! I haven't gain any more weight, which is good!  It is hard to stay on a diet when I have a cold.

Well I have been working a paper model!  I finished it this week and put it on my site!  I am also putting together a plastic model! lol!  I haven't put one together in several years (5 or 6 at least). 

I read a good book last week called "Shoot the Moon" by Billie Letts.

I put up a horor movie message board at  http://www.1-2-free-forums.com/mf/horrormania.html.

I just wrote a letter to Evelyn telling her that we can only be friends.  I haven't heard from her in over a month.  Her last few letters have been distant.  I really do care for her, but I do not deserve to be treated this way. 

My new years resolution is to make new close friends on here, I don't have any friends around here to hang out with, I lost all contact with what friends I had after high school.  I'm a shy person, so it is hard for me to make friends. 

My only job right now is doing housework around the house.  I have no idea what to do with my life, I'm taking a fee theology course right now , which I find fun.  I have a lot of interests, but not for sure what I want to do. 

I am a hopeless romantic!!   I don't think I am a very good looking person, that's why most women don't like me.  I've been trying to lose weight for over a year, but really working right.  I am afraid that know one will like me if I am not in perfect shape.

I don't drive at all, I've tried driving and I 'm just too nervous behind the wheel.  I don't drink, smoke or do drugs, another reason why I didn't have any friends growing up.  I went to High School in a small town and that is all that they did there! 

I thought Evelyn was my soulmate, but I guess I was wrong!  I just wish I can find someone out here is kind, smart, has a great smile, and would love me for who I really am.  But that will never happen.

Well Saturday was a busy day!!!!!!!!  We had Christmas at my aunt kathys.  I really didnt' care for because my uncle Jeff (I dont' claim him) and his young wife and kids came.  Luckly they lwft right after the ate dinner.  We then exchanged gifts.  My uncle Eric got my name I got a book and a movie, Chronicles of Riddick.

Sunday we sent to my aunt, Charolette.  My cousin Keslie got my name and she got me a book ziper cover and a book light. 

We got a digital camer over the weekend.  It is really neat. 

I can't believe that I haven't posted anything on here for over a month!!!!!!  Well I finally heard from Evelyn!!!!  She is staying with her grandparents in MI.  I just got a card thsi week from her!!!!!  I have my doubts about her and me.  I really like her, but not for sure how she feels about me.  I wish that me and her lived closer to another.

A few weeks ago I got a box full of V.C. Andrews books given to me by my aunt.  Then this week my grandma gave me two boxes and a trash bag full of books that her neice had given her.  So i have a lot of reading to do.  lol! 

Tomorrow night we are having Christmas at my aunt Kathys, (my mom's sister)  I do not want to go because my uncle Jeff will be there.  I do not claim him.  (long story).  He has been married three times.  Has five kids (possible more that no one knows about) and his new wife is my age!!!!!!!  He has never wanted to have anything to do with me!!!!  We drew names there but he and his kids didn't.  So we have to wait unitl they leave to do that.

The Sunday I have christmas at my aunt Charoletts!  Dont' want to go there either.  Her daughter, Monica, is a pain!  She had a baby when she was in High School, never took care of her.  Charolette was the one to raise her.   Monica is now in her 30's and her teenage daughter is more of an adult than her.  All monica does is smoke, drink and party.  Now she is pregnant with twins and not married!!!!!!

We unwrap presents here on Christmas Eve Day!  We are going to have a Christmas dinner on Christmas Day here!

Hi everyone.  Well I am over my cold now.  I am worried about Evelyn.  She left the Saturday before Halloween to visit her grandparents.  She was suppose to be back on Halloween night.  On Thursday i got an email from her that her trip was going good, but she has caught a cold and was running a fever.  She said she thought about going to the hospital.  I haven't heard from her since and now I am worried.  Hopefully I will hear from her soon.

Just got an envelope ready to send to the Bible College tomorrow.  I have three more courses done.  We had over 100 kids here for Halloween.  We ran out of candy and had to shut the door.  I will probably drag out the christmas lights this weekend.  lol. 

Well I won 30 dollars on a lottery ticket today.    I have already spent it on christmas presents.

Billy